I started the oatmeal diet again...but tweaked it to where it's only for breakfast. And then I chop up fresh fruit in it and add protein granola and almonds and cinnamon and stevia. And then I have a whole wheat wrap for lunch with humus, lean turkey or chicken, cashews, and fresh greens and another piece of fruit or fresh veggies. Then I eat a normal dinner. I've just lost .6 of a pound this week....at first I gained but then I lost. I know it's not much, but the scale has not dropped beneath 198 in a couple of years, and so 197.4 is a big deal to me after just a week. Even if I only lose .6 of a pound every week, that will add up. And then hopefully I can get off of Health Trac in the Healthshare plan we are in. I think they will take me off that part when I hit 160. I am working with my rheumatologist to get my joints feeling better so it doesn't hurt to move and then I should add some more exercise back in but this time I will not go overboard and hurt myself. This is the heaviest I have ever been. My 'normal' weight before all of this pain and fatigue kicked in was around 150. And I discovered by counting calories again that I wasn't eating enough of them. When I check to see how much of a 'glutton' I have become and entered my calories in as I ate as I normally do, my intake was only around 1200 and maybe that is why my body has been holding onto fat and my metabolism is screwed up. So I am trying to remember to eat a healthy trail mix bar between meals to get my metabolism humming again and snacking on fresh fruits and vegetables. I know it's weird...I have to eat to lose, but skipping meals for me has messed up my body. I know it seems counter logic to eat to lose weight, but it's what I have to do. I have to also use positive self talk and remind myself that God sees me as worthy to be fed because I belong to Him and He just sees His daughter and not just my mistakes and sins and to give thanks for the food before I eat it with a prayer to my Father in heaven. It is His love that makes me worthy. And so I celebrate and give thanks for this tiny success even though it's very small and only a first step. God please keep my humble as I lose weight and never let me become a show off or proud about it or forget that it comes from you.